Personal development

My personal
development
journey.

I have spent a lot of time exploring how I think, how I feel and how I live. Anxiety and curiosity have both taken me places. These are my experiences, thinking tools and the people I learn from.

A little room to noticeThoughts and feelings sit within a wider circle of awareness. An image for Shahzad’s experience.ThoughtsFeelingsNotice.AWARENESS
An image for my experience.

From my Journal

Things I am
working on.

My experiences

Curiosity takes
me places.

Vipassana, Burning Man, Vedanta, non-duality and shamanic ceremonies have all been part of my exploration. I have no single answer from all of it.

2013 · My experience

Vipassana

I did Vipassana in 2013. It was a great experience, and part of my interest in observing my own mind.

The Goenka tradition describes Vipassana through self-observation and attention to bodily sensations.

About the practice ↗
Philosophy & spiritual enquiry

Vedanta & non-duality

Who is aware of the thoughts? Who am I? These questions keep giving me something to explore.

Vedanta includes different schools of Hindu philosophy. Non-dual accounts explore the relationship between self, awareness and reality.

Explore Vedanta →
My experience · Poland

Three days in the forest

A Vision Quest, three days alone and an intense encounter with my own mind. I still remember becoming very poetic.

The experience involved going without food and water. Going without fluids can cause serious dehydration.

Read the reflection →
2015 & 2016 · My experience

Burning Man

I went in 2015 and 2016. I had a catharsis, and I keep returning to the question of identity.

Read the reflection →
Personal exploration

Ceremonies & altered states

My exploration has included ayahuasca and Sananga. I remain curious about the experience and the science.

The Learn pages explain traditional contexts, mechanisms, human evidence, uncertainty and risks. Sananga’s proposed clinical benefits remain unestablished.

A framework I return to

What am I
trying to change?

I use Robert Dilts’ logical levels in NLP to look at a situation from different angles. These are questions for reflection.

  1. 01

    Environment

    Where am I, and what is around me?

  2. 02

    Behaviour

    What am I doing?

  3. 03

    Capabilities

    What can I do, and what can I learn?

  4. 04

    Beliefs & values

    What do I believe, and what matters to me?

  5. 05

    Identity

    Who do I believe I am?

  6. 06

    Purpose & connection

    What am I part of beyond myself?

Dilts calls the sixth level “spiritual”. His proposed hierarchy and brain-system mappings remain theoretical. The diagram is a map of his reflection framework. Source reviewed 19 September 2026.

Teachers & thinkers

People I
learn from.

These are influences on my thinking. Their philosophical and spiritual interpretations remain attributed to them.

All the people I learn from →

A question from Dan Sullivan

Three years
from now.

Imagine looking back three years from now. What would have happened for you to feel happy with your progress?

Adapted from Dan Sullivan’s R-Factor Question ↗.

I make a vision board every year. I give myself a future version of me, then look at what needs to change in the current version. It gives my energy a direction.

  1. 01The future I want

    A picture of what matters.

  2. 02What needs to change

    My thinking, habits and choices.

  3. 03My next action

    Take ownership and begin.

Read the reflection →

Keep exploring

Books &
conversations.

My must-watch podcastsDHH. Naval. Huberman & Derek.A thought from Terence McKenna →